I guess i have not had time...actually been lazy.
so many things have happened in my life since i last updated this.
first of all, i am a single 23 year old girl now. started the new year solo.
at first i was lost. i felt completely lost. being with someone for so long, 3years, allowed me to forget how to be alone. i had not been alone for so long that once i was alone, i did not know how to act, flirt, and meet anyone. I had forgotten how to be single.
Now, I am back. I am myself. I am the girl I used to be before I fell in love 3 years ago. I now know what i want.
I do not regret anything i have done in my life.
I believe that mistakes and any situation makes you who you are in life.
so that was my January-Feb.
It is summer now.
I am enjoying the san diego sun.
meeting new people every day.
loving life
enjoying life and having fun.
I have not met any guy that blows my mind out of the water.
I am not even looking.
I still feel emotionally handicapped and scared of loosing my heart to someone that is not worth it.
It is just hard.
hard to find someone to live with for the rest of your life.
where are you supposed to meet this one perfect soul?
at a bar ? at a club? market? church ?
i want an amazing story to tell my kids about.
about meeting my lover in such an amazing place.
seems to me that i will be telling my kids-
" i met your dad at a club. we were taking tequila shots and he held my hair back as i threw up in the back seat of his car"
ha. hopefully not.
i think this sun is melting me. my mind is all over the place.
sorry for my........scatteredness.
a picture is worth a million words...... this is what i have been up to.
